Thursday, December 6, 2012


everyone has a release, something they do to take themselves out of the present moment and just become free. you have one. that thing that keeps you sane when you are surrounded by insanity. or maybe it's something to allow yourself to go a little insane when your surrounded by too much sanity. either way it's comforting to know you can escape. 

that is why i love to write. i love to create stories and characters that are so complex even i question their actions. i love knowing that i can create anything and no one can tell me it's wrong, or doesn't make sense. i'm not usually one to share my characters or stories i come up with, for reasons i'm not even really sure of. but i was looking through my old writing journals and notes and thought i would share an old piece i wrote a few years ago. it's good to remember the things you love, it's good to never forget your "escape". for you never know when that "escape" of yours just might save you. happy thursday!

Distant Walker

Walking down the hallway
Walking through the crowd
I hear the people whisper
God their talking loud

I tense up my bony fingers
Squeal away the fear
How dare they try to hurt me
How they sit there with their sneers

Who do they think they are
Trying to get inside my head
Fuck their little games
My blood it still bleeds red.

I flick my flame inhale my smoke
A calmness comes over me
The chatter of the people die
My pain is finally free

But only for a moment
Before they strike again
Their comments getting louder
Their threats they soon begin

All because I’m different
Because I don’t dress the same
Could it be my slightly crooked nose?
Because you think my jams are lame

Whatever the reason for the hate
For the gossip and my fear
I’ll stop my beat and close my eyes
Not showing up next year.

What’s the moral of this story?
The lesson to be learned
To stop the beating bully
To have cruelty be burned.

Monday, December 3, 2012

making a list.

i don't know about all of you but i am so ready for the new year! i have learned a lot in 2012 but i have a feeling there will be bigger and better things to come in 2013. do you all make new year resolutions? i always do for the fun of it, but of course like everyone else i tend to forget or dismiss them come the second week of january. that doesn't mean i don't set goals. quite the opposite actually. i  am such a list and "write it down" kind of girl. each year on my birthday (which happens to be in january, so it works out good) i set however many goals for the age i am turning. i did this last year and to my surprise i still have the crinkled paper in my wallet with all my goals! i love the feeling when i look at it that i have crossed off the majority of my list. i have little goals such as read a new book or expand my music selections, to bigger ones such as run the st. george marathon (which i did this past fall). i think it is important to set goals so that you can better yourself with each new day. i am still trying to come up with all my goals for the new year but luckily i have some time. 

sorry things have been quiet over here in my part of the internet world. life is busy, school is hard, and work is tiring. when i opened up my browser tonight and saw my little blog on the bookmark bar i thought i would stop in and say hello. hope all is well with you fine people and remember to keep on keepin' on. until next time...