chores.

snaps+shots

flickering lights

ringing in the new year.

well the first week of january is tucked behind us. i am so excited for 2013 and all of the adventures it holds. one of my goals to complete this year was to buy a new camera. nothing too fancy just something that i could document everyday life more with. as i was looking through my pictures of 2012 i have next to none. that really needs to change. so i went out yesterday and found the perfect little camera that would do just the trick. i am the least knowledgeable of cameras by a landslide. but after a million questions to the salesman and a couple hundred test shots later i picked a winner. i went with the cannon powershow sx500 IS. hope all is well with you fine people. 

  

thoughts.

everyone has a release, something they do to take themselves out of the present moment and just become free. you have one. that thing that keeps you sane when you are surrounded by insanity. or maybe it's something to allow yourself to go a little insane when your surrounded by too much sanity. either way it's comforting to know you can escape. 

that is why i love to write. i love to create stories and characters that are so complex even i question their actions. i love knowing that i can create anything and no one can tell me it's wrong, or doesn't make sense. i'm not usually one to share my characters or stories i come up with, for reasons i'm not even really sure of. but i was looking through my old writing journals and notes and thought i would share an old piece i wrote a few years ago. it's good to remember the things you love, it's good to never forget your "escape". for you never know when that "escape" of yours just might save you. happy thursday!

Distant Walker

Walking down the hallway

Walking through the crowd

I hear the people whisper

God their talking loud

I tense up my bony fingers

Squeal away the fear

How dare they try to hurt me

How they sit there with their sneers

Who do they think they are

Trying to get inside my head

Fuck their little games

My blood it still bleeds red.

I flick my flame inhale my smoke

A calmness comes over me

The chatter of the people die

My pain is finally free

But only for a moment

Before they strike again

Their comments getting louder

Their threats they soon begin

All because I’m different

Because I don’t dress the same

Could it be my slightly crooked nose?

Because you think my jams are lame

Whatever the reason for the hate

For the gossip and my fear

I’ll stop my beat and close my eyes

Not showing up next year.

What’s the moral of this story?

The lesson to be learned

To stop the beating bully

To have cruelty be burned.

making a list.

i don't know about all of you but i am so ready for the new year! i have learned a lot in 2012 but i have a feeling there will be bigger and better things to come in 2013. do you all make new year resolutions? i always do for the fun of it, but of course like everyone else i tend to forget or dismiss them come the second week of january. that doesn't mean i don't set goals. quite the opposite actually. i  am such a list and "write it down" kind of girl. each year on my birthday (which happens to be in january, so it works out good) i set however many goals for the age i am turning. i did this last year and to my surprise i still have the crinkled paper in my wallet with all my goals! i love the feeling when i look at it that i have crossed off the majority of my list. i have little goals such as read a new book or expand my music selections, to bigger ones such as run the st. george marathon (which i did this past fall). i think it is important to set goals so that you can better yourself with each new day. i am still trying to come up with all my goals for the new year but luckily i have some time. 

sorry things have been quiet over here in my part of the internet world. life is busy, school is hard, and work is tiring. when i opened up my browser tonight and saw my little blog on the bookmark bar i thought i would stop in and say hello. hope all is well with you fine people and remember to keep on keepin' on. until next time...

apple dippin'

there is something about fall that just makes my heart melt inside! i am quite fond of all the leaves changing, the pumpkin carving, and the george a. romero movie marathons. it's great. another thing i love is apples and caramel so to the genius who put the two and two together, thank you! although martha wouldn't approve of my apple's appearance, my family seemed to gobble them up pretty quick. happy fall!